All this makes me wonder....

Why bother? All your relationships, all your belongings, all your values, work, everything, will be gone in one moment. Why are you doing what you are doing right now? Why are you putting all those emotions into the relationships that will be gone as soon as death or dementia strike? Those hours into work, just to be laid off later. Some days I feel like giving away everything I own. Will call you if I ever do that. Who cares about the latest iPhone when you have no one to call? Why watch movies that you are going to forget less than an hour later? Why put all that time into a drug that can extend your life by may be 5 years? The pursuit has taken us far beyond what we had signed up for. Do we even know what we're chasing any more? When I was 6, all I wanted was a sister. The chase was fun. Then she came. The chase was over. I moved on. Chasing movies, cultural events, math, life partners (chasing them away), books, jobs, friends, and even money. Now what? Not that I'm a billionaire by any means, but its not the same now as it was before. That period when you are out of your parents home and on your own. Living from pay check to pay check. Sharing groceries exactly down to the dime. My motto for now is F everything.